Thursday, July 15, 2004

Day 2

Hello everyone, or anyone. I wonder if anyone see this stuff. This is Mesh, my first time to log in to this blog. Kub's out cold so I have to write today. It's been a long, long day. We made a lot of ground, mostly thanks to an old truck driver named Tidmen. He picked us up just outside of Memphis, TN. The home of the King, the birth place of Rock. Speaking of Rock, that is were we are now. Little Ark. Nice place.
We got a hotel room, the Super 8, close to I-630. We found better luck at getting rides if we are close to the interstates. Those little highway roads really don't do much for us hikers.
Right across the street is a little bar, called "The Dude Drop Inn". I went in for a few drinks. Kub was just to sleepy tonight. As for myself. I had way to much on my mind. The trip, and mostly my ex-wife. Angela Strickland. Six years, gone, just like that. Anyway, back to my blog. I went to this "Dude Drop Inn" cause I needed sometime alone. I was feeling sorry, for myself. Beating myself up.
There I was, sitting on that old wooden bar stole, in the country bar. When this old man, had to be in his late 70's, came and sat down beside me. He didn't say a thing for about five minutes. Just sat here, drinking his bear, watching me. Then out of the blue he looked over and said "Son, I know what your going through. I know that look."
I really wasn't in the mood to listen or even talk about my troubles. But you can't shoot down a friendly old local like that. I just looked at him and said "You have no idea."
He then laughed at me. Not a cruel laugh but just a laugh from an old soul that has seen it all. He told me that I should get down on my knees and thank god that I at least had someone. That I am lucky cause, even if she is gone, I can still hope that we can work it out. What was the guy talking about. Work it out? She ran off.
Maybe I shouldn't have been rude, maybe it was just the beer. I turned to him and told him that he had no idea what I was going through. Again he laughed at me a little. I will never forget what he said to be after that. He looked me at in the eyes. I noticed for the first time, those eyes were sad. "You don't know about lonely" he said. Then went on, "You don't know pain until you've heard all the stories that I have lived." Great I thought. I get to list to him bitch about 70 years of love and lost. But I was wrong. He took a drink, then turned to face me again. "You don't know what sad is" he started to tell me, "You don't know about lonely." I started to feel that his old man, this stranger was sitting her talking to me for a reason. Like he was sent to me. He stood up, looked right at me. I will never forget what he said after that. He took the last drink of his beer and then finished. "You don't know how long nights can be, until it's Chiseled in stone." He then turned, give me a little pat on the back and slowly just walked away.
I sat at the bar for other hour. Those golden words of wisdom from the heart of that old man sinking deep in to my head. I guess he is right. At least I do have somewhat of a change to fix things. Unlike him, his love is lost forever. The name of his true love is now, forever chiseled in stone.
Sorry for the downer tonight. I was just so taken with this old man, I needed to share it.
Until tomorrow.
"They say home is were the heart is, but my heart is never home"


Blogger Chalupa said...

Hey Mesh -
This is Chalupa. Hopefully I'm not the only guy reading your blog. I can't say I know what you're going through, but hang in there man. People care even if it doesn't seem like they do. I've got a few things in my past that get me down from time to time to, just different kind of situation.

So would you guys say you're making good time? I think what you guys are doing is pretty cool. Wish I had the balls to take some vacation time (first year I've ever had vacation days) and just take a trip somewhere.

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